my head hurts :[ today kinda sucked. i feel better though, thanks to my best friend :] i have a lot of homework i should probably get started on. but my paper cut hurts. i got helium in it at work the other day. who know that was possible? because i sure didn’t. my cut looks kind of inflated. haha.
suck. my head hurts a lot. i keep thinking about today. about how everytime we talk everybody watches us to try and hear what we say. i miss you being in my life. but im happy right now and i dont want to mess everything up like i always do. i feel like i destroy my own happiness sometimes. i make such stupid decisions that i regret so much it hurts me.
i’m in serious need of a long serious convo with my best frienddds
but i’m too tired to try it on the laptop so I guess i’ll have to settle for this.. lately I have no time to blog anymore. -_- I started my first 2 days of work this weekend. It’s a very fun job and I love my coworkers, but it is A LOT of work. However i made 60$ in tips this weekend so I guess at the end of the day it is worth it :]
it feels weird having free time. so i guess i’ll blog because i have nothing better to do. let’s see my life has changed drastically these past few days. I’m realizing who’s important to me and who isn’t. I quit tennis, my coach was belittling me and I’ve finally had enough. Honestly, if I hadn’t gone to RYLA this past summer I probably wouldn’t have reacted the same way I did.. I’m glad I put some skills to good use :] I also have a job finally! I’m super excited about it I’m not gunna lie. Before Dan’s football game tomorrow I’m going to sign all my working papers and such. My life is pretty hectic with dance, a job, a shit load of homework every night, after school activities, and babysitting my brothers. plus making time to see Dan.
It’s a little much. Let’s see how i pull this one off.
i just got the best idea for a new genre of music: harry potter-core
LOL do it.
listening to the postal service. today seriously sucked. it felt like everything that could possibly go wrong, went wrong. i wish someone would just tell me what i want to hear. i need tomorrow, i can’t wait to see my ryla people <3
i resort to tumblr. i’m wide awake and i figured this is a perfect outlet for my energy. tonight was a ton of fun. :] i love my friends they are the best<3 and shopping is the next best thing. i’m glad i got my new phone because i really missed having a keyboard<3 kind of nervous about tomorrow… wish me luckkk :] & im nervous about sunday too! this is a important weekend.. besides tonight which was just a lot of fun :]
i already have an insane amount of school work and its only been one week. is it sad i already want it done and over with? but then again i guess we all do :] haha. i broke my phone and i’m waiting to reactivate the new env2 i got. XD i have no luck with phones anymore.. i’m also procrastinating history and biology homework :] lol
but life is great<3 i’ve elimintaed all the drama from my life. it has been a good two months<3 :] i’m so happy
“i’m happy knowing that you are mine, the grass is greener on the other side. the more i think the more i wish that we could lay for hours and justa reminisce.”