October 2009
so i need to vent..
about nhs. because i am so close to the cut off its not even funny. im ranked 57 and the cut off is 54 :[ ugh whatevr ive been working so hard to get into something i cant. i guess ill just do my hours and see if i can get in senior year. yeah. i just feel dumb. :/ bleh.
i cant wait till my date with dan<3 that will cheer me right up :]
i'm so sick and tired.
it was nice you stopped by today, even though i couldn’t come to your game. i’m wearing your jersey right now stupid sinus infection. i love you a lot baby. can’t wait until tomorroww<3
it feels like im falling in love..
when im falling to the bathroom floor :]
I do not want to go to work today. I’d rather spend my brothers birthday home playing the beatles rockband with him. But im running low on money lol. i cant resist a 15$ and 18$ juicy perfumes<3 scratch that… I cant resist ANYTHING juicyyy<3 hehe. im excited for saturday even though practically no one is going, i like dressing up and...
scratch that..
i’m staying in state for college I’m going as far away as i possibly can for college. of all the days to start with me, why today? whatever. I can’t believe I’m saying this but I can’t wait for school tomorrow just so i can get out of the house….
on a brighter note, tomorrow is 2 months with dan.<3333
i feel like im going to
pass out but ive felt that way all day, so clealy it is not going to happen. my head hurts and so do my sinuses. :/ ughhh i had my mom come get me around 10 and that was a disaster. She started a fight and brought up stuff that happened in the past. regardless of how i feel tomorrow im going to school because i dont want to be stuck at home with her. my head feels like its going to explode. fuck...
“Why do i overthink every single you or anyone else says to me. I’m...”
you can't try to resolve the past right now
i got the new death cab for cutie ep and a day to remember cd :] so happy i can finally fill my ipod up with all the songs and cds ive been wantingggg. this has been a really tough week but without tina and dan it would have been a million times worse. I’m so lucky to have two people there for me no matter what. One my best friend and the other my boyfriend :] this is most definately the...
I haven't slept in days..
And its starting to show. :/ I feel like an out of body feeling, behind all these fake smiles and laughs i’m really hurting. Seeing you in the hospital completely broke me down. I tried so hard to stay strong but seeing you like that broke my heart. It broke my heart that my brothers had to hold me up. I feel like there are only a few people there for me through this whole situation: my...
